life a game

Every person comes to this world alone.

Every one goes away alone.

But everyone has a misunderstanding that we are not alone during our life. Bcoz it is not true. We are as alone as ever. Some one may think about you , care for you but your enters will never be about their interest ever. I some times feel that I have got everything in this world. But then I feel what have I got that I “I” wanted. And the answer is “ “ . It feels that I am a video game. The remote keeps on moving from person to person. When they feel that they are tired they stop the commands and ask me to live my way by the time I start that again they are in a mood to play…. So indirectly when they want me to think and work they command for that. When they want to play they use the remote and give commands. Life has been going so since ages and I have always in a hope that One day my thinking will be proved wrong. But to my surprise a day comes and my thinking is not proved wrong instead I am even more hurt….. Anyone can come and say anything. Anyone can come and love me. Anyone can come and care for me. And then anyone can come and control my life and all the decisions related to it. Has ever anyone thought of asking me that what did I want ? What were my dreams? What were my wishes? What will make me happy? I guess at times but to forget. Bcoz I hardly remember my dreams coming true or someone fulfilling my wishes. Why have I been always the one who has to adjust. Why does everyone think that they I am not doing right. Why do I have to always keep quite and listen to everything. Why is it me who has to surrender and prove myself wrong.

But I love this world. I love my life . I love the people in my life . This is what I always have to remind myself. Why do people expect things from me which they know I am not sufficient for. Why do I always have to prove myself. Why do I always have to hide my tears. Bcoz if I show them my tears they wont like it and that is also my fault. Have they ever tried to understand that why do I cry. How hurt have I been. But how does it matter. One day I wish to end it all. And not affect anyone around me. Plz God bless ppl around me with good health and keep them happy. Don’t make them weak bcoz of me. Don’t let me affect anyones life. I have learnt to hide everything and anything from each and all…. May this life be a bliss for all…..